I Hate This Part

I've been unhappy lately.

I don't like to say it but yes, that's whats going on right now.

It's all comes down about work. I hate it when I don't like to go to work or be at work, because it will effect everything around me. It's hard to wake up in the mornings and when I reached the office, I can't wait to go home. The only thing that keep me sane are my friends here.

I don't hate the things I do here, I love my job but I can't stand the other things anymore. I don't like to talk about work here so I won't go into details, but I need just need let it out of my chest a little bit today, ya know? I've been browsing through those job ads, but I am not too sure if my situation is too extreme for me to take the jump. It is extreme actually. *$&%^#& ah! I love the job here, and especially my friends here. So it would be a very difficult decision to leave. It's hard to make decision to leave if the reason you leaving is not because of the job but other things like the "upper" people and how they treat you. You have been performing but it is not rewarded (but other people, dpt pulak?). Sucks kan?

I thought I am over this phase. I thought I don't have to worry about work. But this has affected me this past few weeks. I am so down about work, I am so demotivated but of all days, these past couple of weeks has been the busiest and I have to support the team. Ironic right? I am tired, mentally and physically. I feel like I want to take a few days leave lah.

Anyway, eventhough the above things I said made me unhappy, I am more upset about my earphones!!!! HAHAHA. No sound come out from the left speaker. I am in dire need for new earphones. And it decided to fail on me at the end of the month where the fund is nearly gone. Awww this sucks! You know how I am with my ipod. Need to buy a new one soon. But of yeah, I also heard that the salary might be late this month, so my earphones just have to wait a little bit longer. Told ya it sucks.

*sigh* well, I hope you guys are feeling better than me.

Eh, wait, on a happier note, my sis in law Ida suprised me last Sunday with a super early birthday present. I was so suprised. hahaha. segan pun ada. My birthday is like 4 months away. She gave me a turquoise pendant, she said there were only one left so she just bought it for me. So nice kan my sis in law. I told her the other day when I saw her pendant that I always wanted a turquoise pendant or bracelet because it is my birthstone (but it's not fun buying on my own kan? Hahaha but I didn't tell her that lah). Thank you Kak Ida. I love it!

I wanna see this. Jom?