It started off with Ain last December, of which reminded me that I haven't blogged about her wedding day. From Miss to Missus Part 3 hahaha. Ah.. should I still? Ain already expecting her baby in early September. The latest was the Slattery's wedding reception, earlier this month. Before that was Syira's wedding. Then one by one my friends are either gave birth to babies or carrying babies.
Hey, don't think in a wrong way, Im so happy for my friends. I'm happy that I have so many circles of friends that I can experience how to deal with friends of different statuses. hehe
I've been with the bride-to-be on her last of being single woman for 3 times - Tuya's, Ain's and Syira. I wish I could be there for Angah, but then she is already married. keke, although I stayed with her till the end of the day on the reception day.
Anyway, let me get to my point. I love being involved in weddings stuff. But sometimes, when I think back, something in my heart tells me that, when will my time comes? Being close to the weddings, now when I think of it, makes it harder.. because deep in your heart, you cannot help but imagine of your own wedding and somehow it makes me kinda sad. Well, it is not sad really but hmm don't know how to explain it really.
That day, during Angah's reception day, when I said goodbye to my family (my family also attended the reception) and told them I'm gonna stay with Angah, my dad looked at me and said something like, it is always you... I looked at him, and didn't really get it. He smiled and there's something on his face.. look of pity? Sad? He smiled and have that little look that makes me go like.. "awww Pa", but I didn't say it of course. Then as I turned away, I think I know what he meant. I've been thinking about the same thing.
I've been thinking to talk about this for awhile now but I thought I didn't want to write something like this because it may appear that I'm sad or desperate? Now when I thought again, this is natural feeling, right? Im not normal if I didn't think this way. I don't know. What do you think? I didn't want to think much of it, but since I'm thinking about it right now, so might as well I write about it.
A twitter friend recently tweeted "One day someone will come into your life and you'll finally understand why it never worked with anyone else". Nice eh? So I'm gonna keep that in mind.